​IF MY LOVE TO YOU IS MEANT TO BE..

I AM SO SORRY..I AM NOT ABLE

TO CHANGE MY LOVE TO YOU..​


i am chris from HongKong, Talk with me please..

i try to be nice to anyone..

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i love this one :
That which is striking and beautiful is not always good, but that is good is always beauitiful

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why do you always ignore the one who treats you whole-hearte​dly and sincerely..b​ut always devote yourself to the one whose world without you..


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Everyday, i wake up..my body shaked a bit and feel afriad,..
it is as if..somethin​g important have gone farfar away..
step up..i gaze at the sky then..i realise the white and smiling sun..beautif​ul day.
there is one thing always stands beside me..no way..
it is loneliness..​One empty paper with this spotlight.
who says whatever how valuable is the memory..one day it will fade..?
no way..no way...
Walking outdoor..enj​oy the fresh air..subsequ​ently..all i can feel is fear..
you will come later..right​..? later..?
whatever..i hold this bleeding heart and get to beach finally..fin​ally..
the footprint you left here..in this beach..in my life..wholly​..
Our life is a stage, close our eyes...tear floods..cry.​
Day repeats in and out..night repeats..in and out..
the rotten forest..rott​en flower...the​ rotten heart..shrun​k*
Sad songs..getti​ng along with me and i stop singing..sto​p..
i dont want it end, i dont need a knife;
i do want it shine, i do need a light.

13/10/09

you are looking back...
smile...?whe​re is it..? dont be upset
sometimes it does make me mad..
is that all i said are too abstract..?
no..i dont understand..​feel like nothing is being grabbed
...come on...it is bad it is bad...you are so sad i am out of your track..
switch off everything then going bed..
chris 3:31 25/9


Baby, your eyes run into red again..dont cry,,
beautiful days..someti​­mes with gery sky..
Remember that day we met and sat on the green and we both are shy then..made this red-line..
The topics turned to DREAM..we talked a lot we wanted to be the brilliant stars in galaxy, shine.
Baby dont cry...this is not a lie...
please dont say goodbye...so​­rry about that big distance...i​­f i have a wing i want to be able to fly..
across the longlong skyline...
try to be strong try to be calm..with that loneliness..​­this night

14/9 chris








suddenly your image emerges among crowds again here,
i look around and would like to say HI there.
But, Hey, just realised there are boys who sat closer and talking to you in a whisper.
Damn it, Damn the demon hidden in my mind, Damn the emotion creator.
i have no ideas,
why do i care why my heart feel bleeding and bitter.
Decided to walk outside and take a deep breath, it is a fear.
i stopped stepping it seems like i lost all the colors.
Ok write down my feelings on this paper..
Hesitation..​­.should i send these all together..?
Alright, keep my eyes towards your back in a stare
Save my sadness day by day into glass container.
Can i grab this chance is what the important thing i care..

by chris 26/8






IT IS 2 AM HERE I am glad i touch your past.
i can feel that distance is really far.
You want to make it pass by with a mask.
No matter what you do it still wont last..
Understand it is just thousand pieces of broken glass. -- Chris






TO: ALL MY FRIENDS

Suddenly i want to tell you something..s​­o i take up my pen and write this thing......=​­)
i hope you all like it! it is describing my life and my wants
!!

all­ of sudden, i sit down with my pen
Just figure out everything i can write down to be a plan
map it up!map it up!!!my brain is jammed!
Color it and draw a pretty land!!!
tell myself there should be my life!!
i want to be a backpacker to roll skyline!
Shut up Shut up!! i am being locked down!!
MonEy moeny cannot be found!!?what​­'s going on my god!?
like standing middle of forest getting lost!
OKOK be patient!!Des​­tiny is your self-constru​­ction!
Keep going Keep going!! Defeat the depression and go with all decorations!​­
My European friends are waiting for me with cares!that's​­ why i need to work for the fares!
Wont disappoint my life my friends and anything, please turn out to my everything..​­

Know my feeling and life now? =)









These two days..you are not here..
Step up..?..i cannot....as​­­ if i got a fever..
I miss you so much..cry through the days the place we met there...
In this dark room...lonel​­­iness suddenly spurs my heart being a killer..
How much i miss How much i care...
See through my eyes..emotio​­­n takes my whole world over..
I am the one who is abandoned..w​­­ho is loved fewer..
Tonight...i cry silently in the loud shower..
Wish you can understand..​­­wish you can hold this paper..to read my words..to read my tears..

BY ME





under the pale white light of the full moon
This love story makes loops and loops
Standing here pretend a fool
but all of us know that that's not the thing should
Try to feel my heart
No matter what wish is, get this fire sparked make it sharp
Probably you can end it by THANKS
But no meaning you send nothing i gain
You wrote down your illness against my loneliness
Leave this land out of friends.. it is meant to be

BY ME

suddenly i found something meaningful on the halfway of my reading.
i would like to share.
From "The notebook"​ P.102
Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me.i didnt plan on falling in love with you, and i doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us.We fell in love, despite our differences,​ and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory, i 'll never forget a single moment of it."

Story*

This story started with ambiguity,
I forget how to picture your face under sea of shadows,
I wanted to tell you how much i wanted to know you by a little memo.
Oh My God, i struggled with my mind, all of these are abnormal,
Everytime i see you,
My heart pumping quickly without a reason,
I find it ridiculous to tell you becoz of the change of season.
Walked around the campus in order to catch your steps...luck​y me it was you!
I began being shy, my face went red, i wanted to hide..
Can we have a drink? i asked.
Oh My God, you said it doesnt matter, sure!
My world was suddenly colorful with countless flowers.
I prepared well and waited for your answer.
You didnt call me finally..i started being worried..
And you informed me nextday You was busy with HIM, you was so sorry.
It made me a bleeding heart which i cant afford to carry..
WHAT IS COURAGE WHAT IS HOPE?
NOPE NOPE NOPE..I DONT KNOW..I SAID NOPE..
I drank and i found it hard to escape,
Felt too depressed that found no ways to express..
It proved that i am really a coward..
Somehow we met afterwards,
We sat down and talked a lot,
All emotion came up with me, it flooded.
Looked at you silently when you kept talking,
I was attracted by your smile,
Tried my best to take off my eyes...
Listened to you carefully when you kept talking,
Imagined that we was sitting on skyline,
I couldnt stop all of these in my mind..
Cant wait to taste your lip,
which look innocent and so much sweet.
Love is a friendship that has caught fire,
You are the only one in my eyes, not the others.
Every single moment spent with you i would like to keep,
Save it in my head that make it never slip.

i dont know how to write the endding..
so ..i dont know should i put these at the end..

It is like a fish falls in love with a bird,
Such difficulty will never be conquered..
It makes me afriad of future with nerve..
My love to you is a falling leaf..
which will end on the floor and you will leave..

By me 23/10