broke, and alone. have had my heart broken way to much... </3 but it is being healed.. by someone who holds it in the palm of his hand... he knows who he is if he reads this. Thanks babe... <3

a special thank-you to all those who cared enough to say they hope my heart heals.

no guys who arent up for a relationship​. i cant really handle another heart break now... no relationship​s based on... s. e. x. i will not talk to you is i find out thats all you want.

and if you do manage to break my heart, i will still be there for you, just like i am for all the others who have broken me into tiny pieces...

anyone who actually cares. i will be there for anyone who needs me 2.

girls, i need a good friend who will be there if i need you. i'll be there for you too. no matter what. i am a true friend, and i will be loyal.

i dont know much of anything except engligh, which i know fluently.
id like to learn Gaelic, Japaneese (sp???), and Chinese. Spanish would also be cool. and French!

Music, art, stuff, and poetry... im a true blue poet... i have a couple of poems published...​

by me:

Possible?

Is it possible?
Can I be happy when I feel miserable?
Can I love again.
When I am sadder than I’ve ever been?
When no one notices me?
Not even you, the one man for me?
Is it possible?
Can I be happy after being so miserable?

i like pretty much all music. rap doesnt qualify as music. sorry.

lord of the rings, pirates of the carrabean (sp?), harry potter, eventually twilight will b out too!! lake house, the notebook, JAMES BOND is cool too. um pretty much, action romance comedy lol

bones, house, FIREFLY!!, men in trees

another poem by me:
this ones copywritten and everything
mutual:


What is this I hear?
About love being all joy and cheer?
I want to understand,
I just don’t see,
Love is sad and painful,
Can’t you realize in full?
It hurts and it kills,
I don’t know why we fall.
But I realize that it is warm.
It is fuzzy,
It is nice and comfortable,​
But only when it is mutual.

Twilight series, harry potter series, Imortal series. and most oif nora roberts

by me:

It’s not like I haven’t felt this before
This horror and pain
But to feel it again takes me by surprise
As I’ve locked myself and my heart away.

I’ve tried not to feel and tried not to cry
But I do both everyday
The scaredness washes over me like a wave over the shore
And the tears fall freely while I sit alone.

I try so hard not to care
Sometimes I want to give up
And the pain takes me when I least expect it
I just wish that someone would care.

This hurt is too much
And I am all too alone
I deserve some good in life
But I receive only the bad.

They say life is not fair
And we are never in control
No matter how much I hate it
I now completely understand.

"I'm not okay... but I sure as hell am trying to be!" ~that's MINE

"When you step off the edge of light and into the darkness you hope one of two things will happen, you will find something hard to land on, or you will learn to FLY"

"I always knew I would be a bank robber, so judge all you want ladies and gentalmen, you never did become an astronaught."​

"men occasionally​ stumble over the truth, but most just pick themselves off and walk away like nothing happend."​

another poem by me...

The Lab:
I sit here alone in the science lab
wondering of things i thot i had
wanting to know the things i really have
and all along needing to no what i might have.

i no what i thought i had
he always seemed to be there
i thot he really cared
but it must not of been whats ment to be

i want to no what i have
because it occurs to me i only have bad
a broken family and untrue friends
im lost and i need what i dont have

i need to no what i might have
i need to no the possibilitie​s
for they r better than the certanties
because the certanties are all falsehoods

so now i dream for what i thot i had
and i realize what i do have
now i no what i want to have
and i no its time to leave this silent lab.