Why does it sometimes feel like ....
life's just one big pile of shit that keeps on getting bigger ?

I hate that somedays when you get up in the morning the first thing that you think is "oh fuck,here we go again...anot​her day!" ?

Why does it have to be that the one person who you love most in the world is depressingly​ far away from you ?

How is it that people can say such emmotional meaningful things and not mean them ?

How can you lie to someone and not expect them to be upset ???

Updated 1 month ago

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, and forget about the ones who don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, let it.

Love is a complicated feeling as we all know; I suppose we can use a pomegranate fruit as a metaphoric symbol.  For those of you who've eaten and enjoyed a pomegranate know that it’s a slow difficult task due to the numerous seeds, yet at the same time a very rewarding task.  So for the sake of my point we can say the seeds are simply obstacles inhibiting us from experiencing​ what ever it is we would like to experience.  Now pomegranates​  are not enjoyable for everyone this all breaks down to perception and how any given persons gustatory system perceives it.  This is metaphorical​ly the same as love.  Based on past experiences "Love"​  is perceived differently,​just like with the pomegranate,​ its tastefulness​  is dependent on such variables such as electrolyte balance and such.  So depending on ones chemical balance in any given sensory portion of the brain and experience may be perceived differently.​ Another analogy is to look at love as a tree in a courtyard.  Picture 5 people standing in a hallway with 5 separate windows overlooking the courtyard.  The angle and portion of the tree we see is all dependent on what we see through our window.  If everyone were to draw what he or she saw, everyone would draw a different picture of the same object.  It’s the same tree just a different perspective of it, like wise with love, it’s the same chemical reaction: ChemRX ultimately being the rate at which Oxytocin receptors fire, its just the way our mind handles processes and responds to this chemical reaction in our brain.  Example, for some, Love could be a feeling much longed for, while for other, Love can be a feeling much feared of due to past experiences.​ If it is handled well we'll experience the three stages of love which are: 1. Lust 2. Attraction and 3. Attachment. Many relationship​s end after stage two.  This is prominent because sadly Love is also used to get a "high."​ Since newly found love releases Serotonin, nor epinephrine and dopamine, All rewarding chemicals, some people go into relationship​s have sex than leave.  This is because while two people have sex, Oxytocin is released, which is a chemical that leads into the final step of love, "Attachment/Commitment."​ What happens when Oxytocin is released is the pathways of which dopamine and nor epinephrine pass through are interfered with and they loose that "Love High" So they leave and move on to the next relationship​  in order to experience their high once again.  Aside from getting a “love high” intentionall​y, some people leave a relationship​ simply due to being naive to the fact that their mind is entering stage three of love, thus they misinterpret​ this chemical change as falling out of love.  This misinterpret​ation is a result of not understandin​g the process of love, so inevitably they hurt their formal significant other who understands and is ready to move on to stage three.  Um, “love hurts when you haven't yet learned to love and its hurt is intended to teach you to love.”



WHY DOES LOVE HURT? </3
Well first things first lets break down the word real quick, the word 'love', is derived from Germanic forms of the Sanskrit lubh (desire). Desire is the strong wanting for something. Our “want” is for that beautiful feeling we feel when we’re in “love.” We don’t always get what we “want.” As you probably already know through experiences,​ there are two extremes to “love” it can range from the most amazing feeling in the world or it’s the worst feeling in the world. This is all dependent on whether we get what we "want"​ or not. (I.e. is the relationship​ going the way you want it? Is there no fighting, is there genuine trust?) And what we want is that “feeling.” Now love is not a perfect science, people fall in love for all sorts of reasons, different traits and qualities trigger that feeling for different people. I could get more in depth with that but that’s not the question so ill write about that another time. Soo back to your question: “Why does Love hurt?”
Pain in a relationship​ is due to not being ready to fulfil one another’s “wants.” For instance you may want to genuinely trust him, but you simply can’t because he’s a big flirt or you just find it hard to trust guys based on past relationship​ s. Love is often taken for granted and used for all the wrong reasons, such as fulfilling sexual desires. For example, the film "A Walk to Remember"​ illustrates this quite well indeed, Landon unlike the "typica​l guy" was able to see past Jamie's social blemishes and find her true beauty with in. So many men look at women as objects for sex rather than human beings, as a result of media and cultural norms, this is why around the world at least 1 woman in 3 has been beaten, coerced into sex or otherwise abused in her lifetime. These numbers are unsettling but it's the truth of how sick and twisted the cultural norms among men are. The worst part is only 2% of rapists are convicted and imprisoned. This is due to the fact that rape in its self is an act very difficult to prove in the court of law there for many cases go unreported. Now I'm starting to get off topic, all I was trying to say is that the majority of men see "love"​ in the wrong way and don't really understand that they're hurting "her"​ who ever she may be… but anyways so let's get back to my point. So the purpose of love hurting is so that we can learn to Value love and not take it for granted! Now I’m not saying we're not “ready” to fall in love, Its just more often than not we're going to experience ups and downs in our relationship​s, some worse than others, but this should not discourage us from experiencing​ true love. We will one-day experience it; when or with whom I can not answer. Its just Humans were made for many of things, and loneliness is not one of them! I used to always tell myself, “Every relationship​ I go through and get hurt is a stab through my heart, and I’m just not sure how many stabs my heart was built to take.” –quote. But learn not to look at these relationship​s as painful experiences but rather as learning experiences.​ All in all… love hurts when you haven't yet learned to love and its hurt is intended to teach you to love. <3

Updated 3 months ago

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time.

You'll fight with your best friend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, dance like nobody's watching, love like you've never been hurt, sing like nobody's listening, and live like heaven is on earth.

Learn from yesterday, live for today and hope for tomorrow.

Dream as if you'll live forever.

Live as if you'll die today, because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Find someone who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on them, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the one who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your Sunday morning crap clothes, who holds your hand in front of their friends.

And maybe if you are in love right now and yet the person is so far away tell them because if you are in love with them they are probably just as much in love with you and think about you just the same...
Just tell that one special person how you really feel.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much they care about you and how lucky they are to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to their friends and says that's her/him.

Listen to your heart like it's the only thing you can hear because life isn't about avoiding the storm. It's about learning to dance in the rain.

Take life as it is and never give up on what you want most.

Make the most of the best and the least of the worse.

Believe in what you know and believe you can do it, never let anyone tell you to throw your dreams away because it’s your life not theirs.

Just be yourself!

There's only one you, so remember to be true, to the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

Live life to the fullest because you never know when it’s gonna end.

Live a little because you will never be old and wise if you were never young and crazy.

ONE
People who point at their wrist while asking for the time....I know where my watch is pal, where the fuck is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

TWO
People who are willing to get off their arse to search the entire room for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the channel manually.

THREE
When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Fuckin’ right! What good is a cake if you can't eat it?

FOUR
When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the fuck would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?

FIVE
When people say while watching a film "did you see that?" No tosser, I paid 10 bucks to come to the movies and stare at the fuckin’ floor.

SIX
People who ask "Can I ask you a question?"​… Didn't really give me a choice there, did you sunshine?

SEVEN
When something is 'new and improved!' Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement,​ then there must have been something before it.

EIGHT
When people say "life is short".​ What the fuck?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever fuckin’ does!! What can you do that's longer?

NINE
When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks, "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, Knob head?

TEN
People who say things like 'My eyes aren't what they used to be'. So what did they used to be? Ears.

ELEVEN
When you're eating something and someone asks 'Is that nice?' No it's really revolting - I always eat stuff I hate.

TWELVE
People who announce they are going to the toilet. Thanks that's an image I really didn't need.

THIRTEEN
McDonalds staff who pretend they don't understand you unless you insert the 'Mc' before the item you are ordering....​.It's has to be a McChicken Burger, just a Chicken Burger get blank looks.......​...Well, I'll have a McStraw and jam it in your McEyes you fuckin’ McTosser.

FOURTEEN
When you involved in a accident and someone asks 'are you alright?' Yes fine thanks, I'll just pick up my limbs and be off.

FIFTEEN
That song by the Clash that says "Should​­ I stay or should I go?/ If I stay there will be trouble/ but if I go it will be double"​­ Obviously you should fucking well stay then so there will only be half as much trouble you lefty twats! >.< 

Updated 3 months ago

1. You know pencil shavings make everything prettier

2. You rip your pants and instead of throwing them away, you whip out thread and a needle and fix them

3. Fairies and gnomes were your childhood friends

4. There's no need to research the dating history of your boyfriend/gi​rlfriend, you know everyone they've dated

5. Knitting is not just a new trend - you've done it since first grade

6. You've made socks, hats, potholders, flute cases, stuffed animals, and sewn your own clothes

7. As you kiss your boyfriend/ girlfriend, you realise it is like kissing a sibling... so you break up

8. It doesn’t seem weird to have the same teacher for eight years

9. You can never escape your ex …  they’ll probably date your best friend

10. Tie dye was part of your dress code as a child

11. At least one of your woman teacher’s doesn’t shave

12. You've dyed your hair an unnatural colour at least once... or wondered what you would look like with purple hair

13. You've held hands and skipped around a pole, and no one thought it was weird

14. You've lived in a house without TV at some point

15. You can spell out words with your arms... no need for the finger

16. You have eurhythmy shoes laying around your house

17. You've worn a eurhythmy gown

18. You know what eurhythmy is .

19. You've had a crush on all the guys/ girls in your class

20. Everybody in the school knows if you ditch class, or break a rule or hook up with somebody

21. You know not to breathe near the blue paint

22. You can play a wooden recorder

23. You can never forget your embarrassing​ childhood- they chose a picture of you to go on the school brochure

24. You didn't have barbies or GI joe, you had muslin cloths and wooden trucks

25. You know all the bible stories even though you've never set foot inside a church

26. You wonder if Steiner has an agreement with Volvo to only drive their cars

27. Cheerleaders​, football players, and all things "public​ school"​ are not only scorned, but feared

28. You've been asked "isn't that a cult" or a "specia​l school"​ when you say you go to Steiner

29. The thought of main lesson book nights haunt you years after you graduate

30. You've been in at least one Shakespeare play

31. You've used the words "Waldork"​ and "Waldorfian"​

32. No one seems to know anything about Steiner, but you always come across a past Steiner kid in your travels

33. You couldn't wait to get out of there, but once you did you wanted to be back

34. You don't know the pledge of allegiance, but "I do behold the world" and the Bell Ringing verse are permanently imprinted in your brain

35. You know in your heart that no matter how hard you try to escape, you will always be a child of Steiner.

What would you do if.....

1. I died:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I stole something:
6. I was hospitalized​­​​­­​­:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

9. Personality:​­​​­­​­
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Family:

WOULD YOU:

13. Be my friend?
14. Keep a secret if I told you one?
15. Hold my hand?
16. Take a bullet for me?
17. Keep in touch?
18. Try and solve my problems?
19. Love me?
20. Date me?
21. Sing with me?


HAVE YOU EVER:

22. Lied to make me feel better?
23. Wanted to kiss me?
24. Wanted to kill me?
25. Broke my heart?
26. Kept something important from me?
27. Thought I was unbearably annoying?

MORE:

28. Who are you?
29. Are we friends?
30. When and how did we meet?
31. Describe me in one word:
32. What was your first impression?
33. Do you still think that way about me now?
34. What reminds you of me?
35. If you could give me anything what would it be?
36. How well do you know me?
37. When's the last time you saw me?
38. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
39. What song do you think would describe me best?
40. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?