When I was young I ventured out doors and started to explore.
I didn’t go far at first.  Being young and unsure of the world
I kept my home in view at all times.  With a little time and
patience I became more sure and more excited by the things I
saw.  I widened my circle of exploration every day.  Then one
day I looked back and realized I could no longer see the place I
had come from.  I had stopped paying attention long ago and
didn’t even know for sure in which direction home might lay. 
Might as well keep moving forward!

Further and further I went.  Meeting new people and seeing new
things.  I became excited by all the new places and faces.  I
wanted more.

One day I looked up and saw it...this huge mountain righ in
the middle of life.  It rose high into the sky seemingly into
the clouds themself.  It was wide and spread across the entirety
of my life.  I could not see over it or around it.  It was
blocking everything!  I decided to try going around it so I
began exploring to the right.  Still seeing new people and things
but sure the most wonderful people and places were on the other
side.  After years of moving in this direction I became sure that
I would not get past the mountain on this side so headed back the
other way.

Of course I ran into a lot of people I had met before, stopping
a moment now and then to visit.  But the need to explore was
great and I could never stay in one place for long.  Had to keep
moving.  Had to get to the other side. 

I passed the mid point and kept going.  More new things, more
excitement!  The path was littered with rock and many stumbeling
blocks but I moved onward.  Some times I tripped or fell over
something.  I never stayed down for long.  Just picked myself up
and dusted myself off and kept on moving.  Years I traveled in this
direction before coming to believe that there was no way passed the
mountain in this direction either.  No choice now but to start climbing.

The way was steep with many a falling rock.  It often seemed the mountain
was determined to keep me from the top!  The harder it was to climb
the more determined I was to do it.  There were less and less people on
this route.  Most did not want to take the time and trouble to climb
very high.  Further and further I went until soon I realized I was alone.
Completely and utterly alone.  When I fell there was no one to help
me up.  When I was bruised and sore, there was no one to ease my pain.
Alone I climbed and climbed.  Some times I would look back down to the
places below.  I knew there were friends down there.  People who cared.
Part of me wanted to return to the comfort of those from yesterdays gone
bye.  Still, I was determined to climb this mountain in the middle of
my life.  I held on to the hope that those loved ones would wait.  That
they would still be there when I returned with news of what lay on the
other side.

Finaly one day the top of the mountain was in sight.  I would make it
for sure!  I pushed harder that day than I ever had in my entire life
of exploration.​  Ran when I could, crawled when I had to, what ever it
took I would see this through.  Just a moment more and I would be on top!

Now here I am!  At the top of the Mountain of life looking back I can see
all the places I had been and even some that I had missed along the way.
It was all there and I could almost feel the people of yesterday cheering
me on.  Waiting for me to return with news of what lay on the other side.

Turning slowly and with great tears of joy and excitement I took my first
look at what lay beyond....NO​THING!  THERE WAS NOTHING THERE!  JUST BLACKNESS
AND EMPTINESS.  Filled with dispair I fell to the ground and lay there
battered and bruised from my travels.  It had all been for nothing!
Now I am alone and more afraid than ever.  If I go back and tell them
that there is nothing on the other side, it will take hope away from them.
Without hope........​.Well, life is nothing without hope!  And so I stayed
on the mountain alone.  Maybe some day there would be light shining in that
darkness.  Maybe if I just sit here and wait, there will be light shining
in that darkness....​....

Don't expect to much and you won't be quite so disappointed​.

reading, writing and thinking to much!

I like a little of everything old and new.  Not dead yet!

Die Hard!

CSI, Cold Case, The 4400, Law and Order, cartoons

The Undiscovered​ Self by C G Jung

If your not part of the solution, your part of the problem.

If you aren't going to help me, get out of my way.