It’s hard to tell you who I am since I don’t know myself, Im not sure whether I exist or not. I want to believe I do, but it feels like im just somehow living in another universe, like im not experiancing​ the same reality as everyone else, or if im even experiancing​ reality at all..
Souls.. no I don’t believe in souls, or anything spiritual, religious or supernatural​.

So  I pretty much know I don’t belong here, I want to get away from my friends, family, this environment,​ everything. This isn’t the right place for me, somehow I ended up, in such a wrong, wrong place
I don't know what will happen right now, i've graduated and i got no plans for the future.

Ahh I love children, small children. I’d love to have a kid on my own. I love their innocent smiles.. and I think I have a good hand with kids. They like me and I like them.

I write poetry, I’m warm hearted, deep, emotional, shy with bad self esteem, at least on the inside.. On the outside, I’m cold and superficial,​ acting normal, don’t stick out to much – all those last things with a sense of humanity, self perspective,​ sympathy and I’m caring. But I never let the cold outside raise over my warm inside.. I’m damaged, and afraid of showing it.
I think a lot, way too much and it’s putting me in a mess.

A few things I like;
Candles, snow, small children, baking, flowers, star gazing, staying up late, movies, cinema, winter, nights, coffee, old photos, art, music, festivals, poetry, colors, autumn, taking a walk, traveling and cultures.

My name is Rasmus, im 18 and im from Sweden.

I hate the question "How are you?", because you dont really give a sh*t about how i am. And if you would ask, you would expect an short and concise awnser.. "im​ okay"​. And if i would awnser and tell you how awful i feel, that id like to die and how i cry myself to sleep every night, in a desperate try to unburden some of the heavy weight i have to drag around with me every day, it would make you uncomfortabl​e and you would quietly sigh to yourself "i just asked to be polite, i didnt really care"​

Im not looking for anyone to small talk with, i want to talk about serious, deep things. Write me more then a line or two, catch my attention and i will reply.
Somone that stays awake late in the nights would be nice.. Thats the time im mostly by the computer.

Arise, Vivaldi, Michael​ Nyman​, Erik​ Satie​, Yann Tiersen, Schuman, Bach, Beethoven, Mozart, Lykke Li, Björk, Marilyn​ Manson​, Kent, Tchaikovsky,​ Sibelius, Chopin, Hole, Type o Negative, Volbeat, Mew, In Flames, Sigur Rós, David Bowie, Hendrix, The Clash, Ramones, Nephew, Röyksopp, Motörhead, The Police, Gogol​ Bordello​,  Radiohead, Bloc Parrty, Daft Punk, and on it goes..

Amelie​ from Montmartre​
Amadeus
American History X
Brokeback Mountain
Batman Begins
Batman:​ The Dark Knight​
City of God
Clockwork Orange
Coraline
Crank
Donnie Darko
Enemy at the Gates
Ed Wood
Edward Scissorhands​
Fight​ Club​
Fargo
Forest Gump
Goodfellas
Gladiator
He was a quiet man
Hedwig and the angry inch
Interview with the Vampire
Idioterne
Jackie Brown
Juno
Kill Bill
K-PAX​
Lock stock and two smoking barrels
Les Chansons D Amour (Love Songs)
L.A Confidential​
Le Scaphandre et le papillon (The Diving Bell and the Butterfly)
Little Miss Sunshine
Léon
Magnolia
My nighbour Totoro
Moulin Rouge
Mullholland drive
Mellenium Actress
No country for old men
No mans land
Nikita
Old boy
Princess Mononoke
Pulp Fiction
Punch-Drunk Love
Requiem for a dream
Reservoir Dogs
Ratatouille
Sin City
Sunshine of a spotless mind
Spirited Away
Save the Green Planet
Snatch
Schindlers List
Shortbus
Se7en
Saving Private Ryan
This is England
Trainspottin​g
The Big Lebowski​
The Nightmare Before Christmas
The Godfather 1, 2
The Pristige
The Illusionist
The Shawshank Redemption
The Pristige
The Usual Suspects
The Good, The Bad And The Ugly
Taxi Driver
The Matrix
Underworld
V for Vandetta
12 Angry Men
And so on, and so on..

"A long hard road out of hell" -Marilyn Manson

Great minds think alike