Name: Steve

Birthday: February 15, 1962

Went To School In: Singapore and then Sydney Australia

Eye Color: Brown

Hair Color: Light brown slightly reddish

Hair Style: At the moment short, who knows I might go with long hair.

Weight: 109 pound

Height: 5'3

Fashion style: casual, at times sexy

Love To Wear Most: Jeans, leather jeans, silk blouse and blazer.
At times will go with corporate suit.

Weak For: Shoes.

Shoes size: 5

Shoes You Love Most: Wow..my boots, goes as well with my corporate suit as with my jeans. Any particular shoes you want to know from all my 450 pairs?

Shoe Color: Well that's easy, brown and black.

Favorite Color: Black, dark blue, light blue.

Ever Lost Your Shoes Before: What kind of question is this? Ok..once of twice when I had to much to drink.

Beverages: Ok here we go, Singapore sling, Frozen Margarita's,​​ Espresso

MacDonald or Burger King: None of them.

Favorite food: Salad with grilled fish and Sushy.

Candy: Nope

Chocolate or Vanilla: I'm not really fond of something sweet. I love something spicy.

Your Favorite Restaurant: That will be Rain in Amsterdam

Your Favorite Club: What else, The Mansion also in Amsterdam.

Your Perfect Day Will Be Like: Wake up in a deserted island, just relax but with all the luxury that I need. But no phone and no MacBook, gosh that would be perfect.

Your Bad Day Would Be Like: No good Coffee and have to wait for someone.

Windows or Apple: What a question, Apple Macintosh off course

Right Handed or Left Handed: What's that got to do with anything? Ok Right handed.

Your Fear: Stay in bed and waiting to die. Rather die instantly.

Your Goal In Life: Trying to be happy, even if it's only for one day.

Your Most Missed Memory: Ow that will be.....can't​​ remember! Darn!

Your Bed Time: I need my beauty sleep, so I guess it will be early.

Wake Up At: 5 AM.

Your Heritage: Dutch, Portuguese, Irish and Fiji.

Do You Smoke: NO, Never.

Use Drugs: Once, been there done that.

Do You Want To Get Married Again: Aha..here we go, no. Hmm..No. Well lets say that I will think about it.

Kind Of Weather You Love: Rainy Days and lot's of snow in the winter

Vacation Spot: Switzerland,​​ Sydney, Italy and USA will be coming last on my list.

Your Current Location: NB, The Netherlands.​​

Languages You Speak: English, German, Dutch trying to learn Portuguese again.

Tattoo or Piercing: None of that.

Jazz or Rock 'n' Roll: Well I love most kind of music, so I can't say that I prefer that and hate the other.

Classic Composer: That would be Johann Sebastian Bach.

Skiing or Snowboarding​​: BOTH.

Audi Or BMW: Audi.

The Very Important Person In Your Life Is: My father, granny, and my two brothers.

Your Sex Orientation:​​ stra​ight!

Fall For: Tall, Dark Hair and Blue Eyes Men.

Ever Go For A Blind Date: Ow yes...

How Many Times You Fall In Love: How many times, not that much. I'm not that easy falling in love to someone. That person must have a certain quality which I can't ignore it, then maybe..maybe​​.

How Many Ex 's You Got: Gosh, well three. Correction two, the other one I have to nip that in the butt before it even started to be someone in my life. He's married found it out just in time.

Are You A Jealous Type: No. Why should I be jealous of someone that I dont know? I know that I'm a much better person than who the heck she might be. If someone goes to other person while in relationship​​, it means he's insecure, by doing that he might think that it would make me insecure but I'm not! Go right a head, by all means, do I need to buy you some condom to protect you, not for me because I will be long gone!!

Things You Want To Change In Your Life: Less stressful life maybe.

What You Love Most To Do: Driving in the rain, walking in the rain, Dancing, travel..love​​ to see the world.

Favorite Parfume: Gucci and Hugo Boss

Ever Wear A Skirt: What's that? Nope Though I love Valentino.

Your Life 5 Years From Now: Hmm, never think of that. I'd never plan things in advance, I will just follow my mood and what life gives me at that time.

People You Want To Meet: Love to see my father again, but that's not possible.

Ever Think Of Cosmetic Surgery: No, Hell..no I'm still originally ME from my hair to my nails.

You Swear: Bloody hell, even dare to ask that!!

Steve's REQUEST: The Interview


“Hi”
“Hallo, how are you?”
“Fine Thanks, could be better in some ways.”
“Why is that, in what ways?”
“I still have to reach one of my goals, and I know it will come to that. Only I’m not patience enough to wait.”
“Well you better get on it then. And how do you think that you going to make it happen?”
“I just have to put more energy into it, and time, which at the moment I’m lack of that. So I think it’s more about priority than about time.”
“I’ve known you for how long? I think quite a long time, and I could say that you are different now you are more settled. A bit calm or am I wrong in that?”
“Hahaha you could say that, but I don’t think so, I do indeed change a bit. And I think I know what you meant by that, I’m not that spoil brat that always annoying others, but that rebels in me that’s still there. It will come up every now and then.”
“But will it not disturb your daily life if you got to do with many people like with work and friends and family?”
“ I try to hold on a bit if that what you mean, and yes I have to do that sometimes, and no I don’t like it. And with work and all, you got sometimes pull your self together not to do something or said something that might hurt someone. And well, sometimes there are things that just needed to be said, and it’s just tough luck for that person if he or she just don’t get it, it brought me to some troubles most of the time, because I just said what I said, and then I know that I hurt someone’s feeling by it…and”
“ So what will you do, if you know that you hurt someone?”
“Gosh..must I tell you all this? Well I will apologize if I’m in the wrong, which most of the time I’m not, hahaha..”
“You just always want to be right, I know that about you”
“ Isn’t it nice always to be right? No, off course I will apologize, and I know I’m stubborn but it doesn’t mean that I wont apologize if I’m the one that in the wrong. I’m only saying that most of the time I’m right.”
“ Are you happy, with everything that you have right now? “ A long wait for an answer, she just try to avoid this question, but she was to late and got to answer it.
“ I’m not unhappy, yet I can’t say that I’m ultimately happy…”
“Do tell more about it”
“ There are thing in life that it will got presented to you and you got to do something with it or you just have to chuck it off and start a new. I’ve done that before..”
“Are you not happy because of it, did you regret it..?
“No, no that’s not it.  I’m happy that I got rid of it..”
“ By ‘it’ you mean your ex-file “
“Yeah you can say that, my ex-file. What I meant is that there is still this little thing this void inside my heart, and I don’t know how to close that. No matter what I do and how my situation right now, it’s just there. And it’s got nothing to do with how my situation at the moment,  but until that void is fill I don’t think that I can say that I’m happy”
“What made that void inside your heart? Do you really need to do something about it, or you just can forget about it and go on living?”
“ I don’t know why it’s there, as far as I know it always been there, and off course I can go on living even though there is this one loose end that still coming back to me. It’s not that it prevented me to do something with my life, it’s just annoying that’s all. And I really like to do something about it, but it isn’t a priority thing, I mean it’s there and it will be always there as long as I live, it’s part of me I guess. Maybe I just have to accepted that this void is something to remind me of that I must not take things for granted, and that I have to appreciate more what I have right now and concentrate on that”
“ Is there still enough room in your life for other people?”
“You mean like friends?”
“ In general”
“Well you made it very open by saying in general. Let me tell you this, just like I told someone before, I wont plan ahead about how my life will be. I don’t know what’s going to happen to me in the next 24 hours, anything can happen. Someone can get crazy and shot me in the head while I’m somewhere at the mall, or my plain crash down if I fly to Vancouver, or whatever. I mean death will come without your knowing. And you can be prepared or not, it doesn’t matter. I read this one in a magazine and I love it. It says: Don't knock on deaths door, ring the bell and run, he hates that.
Anyway, talking about people in my life, yeah sure there is room enough for them. The more the merrier!”
“Steve, you still use that name that grandmother gave you?”
“Yes, and only a few people knows about it, I don’t think that mom and dad knows about it, it’s something between grandmother and I.”
“Steve, talk to you later sis!!”
“Right, love ya!”

Got up early, found somethings missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second, then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name?
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictabl​e won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautiful things.
I forgot that I might need,
to find out what life could bring.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.​
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
and unpredictabl​e won't bother anymore.
and silently gets harder to ignore.
look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
what's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
just let it go, what now can never be.

Now what do I do?
can I change my mind?
did I think things through?

It was once my life - it was my life at one time.

Tiesto.