Becky, I've got to give you credit; at least you're willing to admit that you have a problem, and it must bother you or you wouldn't have mentioned it. But unless you DO talk about it, it will never go away or even get better. That's why I suggested that you should see someone about it. I'm definitely no mental health professional, but if you want to talk about whatever's on your mind, you're welcome to message me. I'm sorry that I hurt you and again, good luck to you.