A sensitive, introverted old soul who loves spirituality, nature, solitude, meaningful conversation, truth, wisdom, cats, books, plants...

Have always felt like an outsider and rarely encounter people who are near my wavelength. Going deeper into the path of awakening has increased the isolation since there are not a lot of people who can relate. I am open to connecting when the right people come along, though.

I live life at a slow, quiet pace, partly because of my personality, but also due to chronic health issues. Despite the challenges, it has been a profound learning experience that has encouraged deep growth and transformation. Personal growth & healing are top priorities for me.

I consider myself a free thinker, someone who enjoys thinking outside the box, and have learned the importance of questioning everything I see and hear. I connect best with people who are extremely curious, are comfortable with expanding their perspective through the willingness to learn new things, and can also explore alternative/unconventional ideas without arrogance and immediate dismissal. Over time, I have seen that truly open-minded people are hard to find.

Another aspect of my personality that most people don't understand or relate with is my tendency to feel misanthropic and jaded toward humanity while also having the ability to embrace beauty, magic, gratitude, and hope. Occasionally I encounter a person who can also swing between the two extremes, but most often people seem one-dimensional in this area, either being completely cynical and bitter about everything or overly positive to the extent of appearing delusional and in a state of denial. This leaves me feeling as if I have to put a filter on my words to keep others comfortable, which does not work out in the end.

If you are into personality types and curious about mine, I could best be described as an INFJ and a 4w5 on the enneagram.

I'm here to make new friends, preferably females who want to exchange long, thoughtful letters. Absolutely no interest in anything romantic. I'm happy with my partner.

What I crave most in a penpal is depth and authenticity. Hopefully someone who also embraces a spiritual path, prioritizes their inner evolution over external pursuits, and enjoys discussions about consciousness and existential matters. The desire to dive in deep is essential or else I begin losing interest.

I aim to find other truth seekers, free thinkers, conspiracy theorists, the truly quirky loners who don't fit in, and "awakened" beings who follow an unconventional path. The ones who are authentically themselves and secure enough to stand out from the herd and will walk alone if necessary.

I am not into divisive programming like politics, religion, race, and gender issues, so if you are really passionate about such things we may not jibe well. Age, race, and sexual orientation are not meaningful in my eyes when it comes to connecting with a fellow human. I'm much more drawn to the inner world of a person. A person's general energy/vibration and level of consciousness is where I place my focus.

Short messages, as in just a sentence or two, will most likely be ignored. The people who really resonate with what I've shared here on my profile will have a lot more to say than just "Hey, what's up? How you doin'?"

spirituality (nonduality, Advaita Vedanta, Zen Buddhism, Taoism, oneness, self-inquiry, Self-realization, spiritual awakening, enlightenment, mysticism), holistic & alternative remedies, mind body medicine & energy healing (EFT has become a favorite), nutritional balancing, conspiracy theories, deep meaningful conversation, reading/books, thrift stores, secondhand bookstores, flea markets, bohemian fashion, vintage decor, cats, fairies, art (Pre-Raphaelite, Art Nouveau, Victorian, fantasy, vintage fairy tales), plants, incense, essential oils, DIY projects and crafts, walks in nature, exploring the unknown, living in the now

Mostly alternative & independent rock. Favorite subgenres: shoegaze, dream pop, ambient, drone, space rock, trip hop, psychedelic, classical harp

Favorite bands:
Windy & Carl, Bowery Electric, Landing, Lush, Flying Saucer Attack, Jessica Bailiff, Bailter Space, Sonic Youth, The Doors, Lucette Bourdin, Pulp, Pale Saints, Elysian Fields, Cocteau Twins, Emmy Curl, Mazzy Star, Hooverphonic, Stereolab, Rumskib, The Sundays, The Verve, The Stargazer Lilies, Sponge, Swervedriver, Stone Temple Pilots, Gwenael Kerleo, Patricia Spero, Sianspheric, Transient Waves

Into the Wild, Before Sunrise, Prelude to a Kiss, Labyrinth, Some Girl, Ruby in Paradise, Amelie, My Life Without Me, Hideous Kinky, Ghost World, What Dreams May Come, A Midsummer Night's Dream, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Twin Peaks: Fire Walk with Me, Summer of Sam, Leaving Las Vegas, Trees Lounge, The Giant Mechanical Man, Thumbelina, Love Potion No. 9, Gattaca, Metroland

There is not much modern entertainment that I find appealing, but some old favorites are Dharma & Greg, Charmed, Medium, Malcolm in the Middle, The Twilight Zone, Sex and the City, Gilmore Girls, and The King of Queens.

Living on Your Own Terms: What Is Real Rebellion? by Osho
Handbook to Higher Consciousness by Ken Keyes
Everything Is Here to Help You by Matt Kahn
Die to Love by Unmani
That Is That by Nirmala
I Am Me I Am Free by David Icke
Explosion of Love by Gautam Sachdeva

Your existence becomes magical again, when it's not lived as a program. -Mooji

I was no longer needing to be special, because I was no longer so caught in my puny separateness that had to keep proving I was something. I was part of the universe, like a tree is, or like grass is, or like water is. -Ram Dass

My whole teaching consists of two words, meditation and love. Meditate so that you can feel immense silence, and love so that your life can become a song, a dance, a celebration. You will have to move between the two, and if you can move easily, if you can move without any effort, you have learned the greatest thing in life. -Osho

Your skin doesn't actually separate you from the world--it's a bridge through which the world flows into you, and you flow into the world. -Alan Watts

There is only one dreamer, the one Self, dreaming many dreams. In every body there is a dream, but the dreamer is the same, the one Self, which reflects itself in each body as I Am. -Nisargadatta Maharaj