I love meeting new people.. here are random thoughts..on diffrent things..

love a wonderful thing yet it has
brought tears to my soul in
more than one occasion. i believe
that  God is the captain of
my ship and that everything
that happens, happens for a
reason. i am often wrong, and learn
from my mistakes. i am that
which is capable of taking  your
breath and heart away if
given the opportunity. i am a
women who dances when no one else
can see. Dance is my
anti-drug, my pain killer,
and
unconditional friend. I am a book
with many unwritten pages. I
change with time but not with
people.. I am always constant.. I
am always the same..
no
matter who I am with..
i am always
me

go read my note..love it hate. couldnt finish it because it was too long.. or angry..lol generation failure..

.. what is love?

when you love someone do they really go away? can your heart really forget all the moments that took your breath away? can time really heal everything? can it mend a broken heart? can it fix a broken wing? can someone you once loved really be your friend? can people ever keep the promises that they made when in a relationship? promises such as...ill never let you go..i will always love you..i will always fight for our relationship..no matter what happens we will always be friends...do they really exists? or are they just talk in the midst of passion? how do people move on .. after finding the person they thought was "the one?"

like i said i read my friends blog and it just triggered all these unanswered questions in my mind..e-mail with your response..

as for me... i think that love is an unexplainable force.. i believe that there is such a thing as true love.. i believe that no matter what the outcome of a relationship is the people that come into your life always leave a mark upon you. i dont believe that when you have really been 10000% in love- a person ever goes away.. i believe that its not healthy to hold on to a reality that no longer exsist. but at the same token i know its hard to let go. i believe that everything that happens--happens for a reason--and if god put you to it.. he will help you through it. i believe the time facilitate your ability to forget but does not completely mend a broken heart or fix a broken wing--in the end the wing will still be broken but time helps it heal so that you can fly.. promises in my experience are emotional bable that has never proven to be true.. in the midst of love..one says the truth.. but that truth is never constant..it is always changing and does not last with the change of time or circumstances-- if one make a promise while in love-- one can never keep there word.. for the minute that they fall in love again-- the promises made to the new person will automatically make the old promises a false statement.

how do people move on?--- i was very in love once.. my story with this individual can never be explained in words.. i loved him before i met him and the day that i met him my suspicions of being in love with my enigma were confirmed. i live an amazing love story.. while it lasted.. immaturity and lack of trust was stronger than any promise or the love that we ever shared..it ended.. on very sour and bitter note-- how did i move on??
i cryed him away...i dranked him away-- i worked him away-- i got busy-- every time i catch my self thinking of him-- i went to the gym.. i read a book.. i did my homework.. i dance harder than i have ever danced...i sung louder than ever so that world would hear my voice..i wrote him away--i have a box full of letter that i never sent--of poems that will never be read..i became successful-- doing what he nor i thought i would ever do.. as a full time student..taking 18 credits each semester-- im proud to say that i not only have great grades... but i also have a job in which i- for the last past year have made between 800-2000$ every 2weeks.. if truth be told.. i kissed him away-- i broke heart just to see if i was capable of making any man i wanted like me--they did--but in the end i realize that it wasnt worth it.. in the end i realize that for me to truly ever move on-- i no longer could do things under his name--that wich angers you controls you--i was full of rage and i came to the conclusion that i was going to forgive him.. i was going to try to release all the negative conitation associated with his name...and take this feelings as another chapter in my life books of lessons learned.

"I am invisible, understand, simply because people refuse to see me... they see only my surroundings, themselves, or figments of their imagination - indeed, everything and anything except me."

He believes you as he believes in the beat of his heart

"'It's my dreadful temper! I try to cure it; I think I have, and then it breaks out worse than ever. Oh, Mother, what shall I do? What shall I do?

"The voice of the sea is seductive; never ceasing, whispering, clearing, murmuring, inviting the soul to wander for a spell in the abysses of solitude; to lose itself in mazes of inward contemplation. The voice of the sea speaks to the soul. The touch of the sea is sensuous, enfolding the body in its soft, close embrace."

I would give up the unessential; I would give my money, I would give my life for my children; but I wouldn't give myself.