Wish I could wake up with amnesia

Idk how to stop feeling like ****

I miss you...

Do i deserve to be abandoned all the fucking time??

Tell me how do I cope with the pain??

****, it's too painful.

I CANT TAKE COMPLIMENTS

You're Beau...

STOP
I can't
I can't take your compliments.
You say I'm good person,
And I'll tell you I'm not
I'll do anything to prove you wrong
I'll tell you about everything that's wrong with me,
I'll give you a million reason to hate me
I'm just built like that
I'm forced to be like that
I might shy away from it
I might never let you finish
I can't take the appreciation you give
I'm afraid you don't mean it
I don't know how to accept it
I don't know how to believe it
Seriously can't take it..

How are you doing everyone? Please recommend me some tips to cope with the pain being betrayed by someone you love! Would appreciate it.